video nights.

its like life on video.like i've pressed the Pause,went off to get a drink and never came back.its like an interminable sense of nothing.the definition of 'void' and 'lost' juxtaposed against one another and then forcing themselves upon me.it feels like i stopped inhaling for abit.like i forgot to exist.sort of like forgetting myself.(like she forgetting me.)and i want to forget.i want to take control.i want to exhale.i want to press Play.