itches.

i was watchin 'we were soldiers' on dvd.its engaging.achingly engaging.how do you balance the cruelty of warfare and the valour of those who dare to fight?i dont know.i doubt i ever will.

"you're the boyfriend i never had", someone told me very recently.i think that's saddeningly very funny.

if i could mould my body and mind into something more constructive,im curious to know if i would.because i assume moulding is difficult and tedious.like not lighting up a fag.like asking a girl out.like studying.like pretending to give a damn.so fuckin tedious.