catch 22

" 'Sure, that's what I mean,' Doc Daneeka said.'A little grease is what makes this world go round.One hand washes the other.Know what I mean?You scratch my back, I'll scratch yours.'
Yossarian knew what he meant.
'That's not what I meant,' Doc Daneeka said, as Yossarian began scratching his back.'I'm talking about co-operation.Favours.You do a favour for me, I'll do one for you.Get it?'
'Do one for me,' Yossarian requested.
'Not a chance,' Doc Daneeka answered. " - Catch 22

pooh bear

“ "Well," said Pooh, "what I like best -- " and then he had to stop and think. Because although Eating Honey was a very good thing to do, there was a moment just before you began to eat it which was better than when you were, but he didn't know what it was called ” - Winnie the Pooh.

crossroad.

it is a cross,
with
f. o. u. r.
obvious points.
and it is a fear that numbs the legs;
that hesitates.
how does one decide when
each road has a nail,
there to puncture your palms?
how does one decide which road
to take?

the shower of pure.

s is for stale.
these pale lips
are swollen with shame and
the animal game has tattooed your name.
vultures vultures that circle and prey,
pick, peel at your limbs; praying for some flesh.
like flies they swarm.crawling around your wounds,
covering them to only suck at you for
pleasure.pressure pressure that you will not remember
and pressure pressure you remember to ignore.
but the phoenix that you are, beneath your
exhuasted body,
labours to take flight and fight
at the demons that caress.confess to the sins
of your weakness and shine above your ashes,
for you are truly as beautiful as the sun.

blower's daughter.

damien rice played on my ipod on the way back and it reminded me of chris.i remembered sitting with him at ang mo kio, a week before he killed himself, when he told me that damien rice was amazing.
i remember
his blonde streaks.
his temper.
his next menthols.
his dad's old mercedes.
his glass of teh.(which i paid for.)
his bald head.
his sorrow.
his laughter.
his missed call.

i remember you chris.